Diagnosis
“That which does not kill you/Fucks you up instead/Makes you wish you were dead.”
Human existence is plagued by anxieties and deluded judgments. But on “Diagnosis”, State of Mind treats the subject with empathy and restraint.
Thoughtful, melodic songwriting skills are layered on top of unconventional electronica and the occasional fuzz guitar.
From the surprisingly upbeat desperation of “It’s Not Okay”, through the psychedelic synthpop jam of “The Louche”, to the suicidal enlightenment of “The Perfect Place”, “Diagnosis” transforms life’s struggles into a thing of haunting beauty.
Tracks
- The Perfect Place
- How Broken We Are
- Break My Solitude
- Inasmuch
- It’s Not Okay
- Relative Safety
- The Louche
- Tourists
- Never Understood
- A Change Is Bound to Come
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The Perfect Place
One day she packed her bags
With everything she’d need
She closed the door behind her
And walked on down the street
She had to take the train
To get out of the town
She had to find the perfect place
She had to find the perfect place
She walked among the trees
She lay down by the lake
The birds were singing in sky
She’d found the perfect place
She swallowed all the pills
She opened up her veins
She’d found the perfect place
She’d found the perfect place
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How Broken We Are
How broken we are
We wear it so well
We all feel this pain
We can not explain
But no one can tell
How broken we are
And when will it stop
What if we should fall
And there’s no one at all
To help us get up
That which does not kill you
Fucks you up instead
Makes you
Wish you were dead
How broken we are
And where can we go
We fight back the tears
Year after year
So how would they know
How broken we are?
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Break My Solitude
Distant memories
Of every every place I’ve ever been
From the narrow streets of London
To the parks of old Berlin
I still can hear the music
Taste the wine and taste the food
That didn’t break my solitude
I would leave my lonely room
To hang out with my friends
To hide away in darkness
That we hoped would never end
And there I met the women
All dressed up or in the nude
That didn’t break my solitude
Never broke my solitude
As I could never find
What this is all about
I left it all behind
And learned to do without
Why would you help me someone like me
Who’s too proud to ask for help?
Nothing was good enough for me
I was no good myself
I know I’ve been ungrateful
I know that I’ve been rude
When you didn’t break my solitude
Nothing broke my solitude
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Inasmuch
Inasmuch
As you’re alone
Pick up the phone
Who do you call?
Inasmuch
As you forget
Or don’t know yet
How far to fall
How I’d like to prepare you
For each and every shock you’ll have to face
How I wish I could tell you
That in the end you’re bound to find your place.
Inasmuch
As tables turn
And bridges burn
I’ll stick around
Inasmuch
As it may seem
It’s all a dream
You just can’t wake from
Inasmuch
Inasmuch
As I believe
I’ll never leave
What I have found
As you can stay
You’ll have to pay
To those you take from
How I wish I could tell you
You’ll figure it out one day
Though it may take long
How I wish you’d believe me
If you ever hear me say
That I belong
Inasmuch
As things may start
To fall apart
It’s all the same
Inasmuch
As it’s too late
To change your fate
You’ll take the blame
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It’s Not Okay
It’s not okay to feel the way I feel
It’s not okay
It’s not okay to think it’s so unreal
It’s not okay
It’s not okay to want a better deal
It’s not okay, it’s not okay
It’s not okay to do the things I do
It’s not okay
It’s not okay to miss the world I knew
It’s not okay
It’s not okay, the things I ask of you
It’s not okay, it’s not okay
It’s not okay if I’m not having fun
It’s not okay
It’s not okay to be the only one
It’s not okay
It’s not okay to turn around and run
It’s not okay, it’s not okay
Please accept my deepest and sincere apologies
For turning out so awkward and embarrassingly strange
If I thought there was a way that I could ever change
I’d turn into anything but me
It’s not okay to say the things I say
It’s not okay
It’s not okay – it doesn’t work that way
It’s not okay
It’s not okay to think it’s not okay
It’s not okay, it’s not okay
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Relative Safety
We try our best
We try to care
We live to fight another day
But when it’s all too much to bear
We walk away
She had a dog
She had a cat
She even tried to live alone
Now that her boyfriend’s in her flat
She’s coming home
To relative safety
Relatively safe
And if the world should go to war
And if they suffer and they die
It could be right outside your door
When you’re inside
In relative safety
Relatively safe
(I’m relatively safe)
No matter what I had to face
I never made it, though I tried
Just let me find some quiet place
Where I can hide
In relative safety
Relatively safe
(I’m relatively safe)
I’m relatively safe
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The Louche
Pour a drink
And make mine green
Pandemonium
At its most serene
You must taste the sickness
It will make you well
It’s the louche, she said
And it goes right to your head
It’s the louche she said
As she fell onto my bed
This emerald that you desire
Will let you taste a kiss of fire
We’ll be cursed in heaven
We’ll be blessed in hell
It’s the louche, she said
And it goes right to your head
It’s the louche she said
As she fell onto my bed
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Tourists
Take me back home
Take me somewhere
That may have existed
Before I was there
We came this far
Don’t know what for
All we have left to do is
Still ask for more
Nobody knows
The point of it all
Like tourists we pose
At the remains of the wall
And so we hope
And so we wait
To get all we want and become
All that we hate
You can be helpless
And I can be wrong
And we can be heroes
like in that old song
Nobody knows
The point of it all
Like tourists we pose
At the remains of the wall
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Never Understood
I never understood
Why you threw me out
Never understood
What that was all about
I never understood
What was I supposed to do?
Never understood
What rules apply to me
But somehow not to you
I never understood
Your brilliant success
Never understood
Why I just made a mess
I never understood
Well, almost but not quite
Never understood
What it was that I did wrong
Or how you did it right
Never understood
Didn’t do me any good
Never understood
But I thought one day I would
I thought one day I would
But I never understood
I never understood
I used to be your friend
Never understood
Whenever did that end?
I never understood
I didn’t get to say goodbye
Never understood
I couldn’t find the time
To see you once before you died
Never understood
Didn’t do me any good
Never understood
But I thought one day I would
I thought one day I would
But I never understood
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A Change Is Bound to Come
I’m just the way I am
And I can’t take it anymore
Imagine all I could have been
If I’d just get up off the floor
A change is bound to come one day
And I will fight it all the way
I walked a thousand miles
Just to find that I was lost
And then I was afraid
To even calculate the cost
A change is bound to come one day
And I will fight it all the way
Every day I wake up
I know it will be just the same
I’d throw it all away
If that would wipe away the shame
A change is bound to come one day
And I will fight it all the way
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